maybe God is giving me a sign, to start bucking up. 3 times in a week, i got screwed for being too slack. once, i nearly teared, trying hard not to display any sort of emotion, just silently accepting whatever is thrown at me. it is so true, though, i'm one of a kind.

i'm amazed how others can be so ambitious and take charge of their lives, driving it in the intended direction. i suck at that. opinionless and clueless, that sums up me. i've thought over for awhile and realised that this, is the period of transition from teenager to adult. i've got to start trying to be mature and responsible. that sounds like a mountain of a task :/