controversy - the effective crowd bait.

when you have no idea how to get attention when you desperately crave for it, try committing a senseless act that draws nothing but unwanted scrutiny. of course, you probably thrive under scrutiny considering how you possess the guts to even commit an act so absurd. on the other hand, your goal is met. you got the stares you wanted, the gossips-behind-your-back and your ego is satisfied, or is it? nevermind the chaos created, pretend you didn't see how hurt someone became after you gave your comments, you're living in your own world where the population is singular, what else can be expected. their opinions don't matter, in fact you assume their opinions tally with yours. how naive, or is it deliberate? this stingy act of self-preservation disgusts them. you have no idea, at least that's what they think. your masterplan is full proof, self-interest is protected and your future is bright. nothing will stop you, no amount of criticism and encouragement will waver your determination to do what you have already set out to complete. not even your friends, or are they really?

with that ego, at least be convincing when you're insincere. the smile you get in return may hide a knife that's ready to shred skin where blubber has formed. they are praying for the day you fall. that will never happen though, your plan is full proof.