chinese. male. 17.

i think i'm too old for blogging. or rather, my gender and age group isn't suited for blogging. i mean, there ain't alot of high school guys (or jc guys whichever sounds better) around who blog. gosh i think i'm going to stop soon. i'm seriously considering it.

i went studying as a group today. it was fun, and i had alot of help in chem from yanhan. plus its great to see couples together :)

i think written words as a use of communication is really deceptive when it comes to expressing emotions. the element of sincerity just cannot be induced into text messages. gosh, its so hard to tell what a person is feeling without looking at his/her face. ya, the occasional smilies do work. but time and repetition wears away the novelty and meaning.

sometimes i feel, the only reason why you put a smilie in a message is to make the other person feel happy. how do i put it, like it lightens up the mood. don't you feel good seeing a smilie? the presence of a smilie means that person is smiling, isn't it supposed to be like that? so if the person is smiling (in the message), wouldn't you smile too. that would mean a smilie back. then it travels back and forth back and forth. gosh, is smiling forever possible? NO. except for, maybe, like the care bears or something. my point is, i'd prefer talk more and message less. more heart to heart, than superficial indulgence on the immaterial.

in an effort to remove all temptations from my life, i have deleted lamb of god and what not from my music player. i'd probably put hillsong in later. i realise rachel is coming back tomorrow, despite nat's constant bugging, i don't think i'll go fetch her from the airport. it's just too awkward for me to go. that reminder prompted me to go read her blog, and i read this:

People lose their way without an anchor, you know. And for my part, I wonder how it is possible to deny the existence of God... when everything around us shouts of His handiwork. And why, why do you find it so hard to believe in the God who loves?