while i'm chionging my ee now, i realise there actually are things to look forward to this new year:

1) my private pilot's license
2) arsenal winning the epl, uefa champions league, fa and league cups :D
3) obtaining a driver's license
4) i want a motorcycle license too
5) completing IB
6) YF Camp 08

the above mentioned are the material things. about friendships and relationships, i only pray i will grow closer to the friends i have now. well i did grow closer to some during the course of the year, and some really close ones have slowly distanced themselves. it is sad not to notice the distance we have drifted apart until it actually occurs to the extent of being strangers once again. thus, it is important that i treasure every single good friend in my possession now <3

i have a feeling that when school starts, i will develop this strong detest for school life. once again it's the time to adapt.

i realise we are opposites with nothing in common, except maybe in One. do i really want this?

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haha guess what i found in my mail later on in the afternoon today, a 'lost' friend found again :D

Heyhey,

I realized that I haven't talked to you in an awfully long time and I do miss talking to you! A lot a lot. I feel so outdated in the sense that I don't even know what's been going on with you and stuff. And I do realize that I want to get back into the circle of things and I hope that we can talk like we did last year and this year before I went to Berklee. So an update from me your dear bestie. I hope you haven't forgotten me :D

I really really don't know how much you know or not so I'm just going to start from the top. Okay, so I'm going back to Berklee in the Spring. Which is Jan. Jan 16th, I hope I see all you guys before I leave. I'm going back to the snow and I'm going to live with people that I don't know (roommates) to save rent, and all those weird stuff. Hopefully I won't get too weird roommates who do drugs and stuff. Ha yeah. When you guys come and study at Berklee then we can rent a whole apartment and it becomes a FOURcast apartment. It's a long haul but it'll be really fun. :) That is, after your NS and all that so yeah. Haha. So I'm still trying to decide what major to take, but I'm heading towards Music Production & Engineering and Film Scoring. Double majors yeh. MP&E's really hard to get into, 3.8GPA, interviews and portfolio and all that stuff, so I've been working on my portfolio ever since I've been back. Writing a lot of instrumental music and stuff, which is where I got the idea of Film Scoring because as we all know just a little bit of music can bring your emotions to such a different place and I want to be the one composing and nailing that emotion for film. Pretty cool but we'll see if I have the aptitude for it.

So why I decided to write this e-mail was because I was reading through old e-mails a couple of nights ago and I found e-mails from 2005 when I was in Australia for my cousin's 21st birthday and you e-mailed me everyday and it kept me so so so so happy. And you were talking about conferences and all that kind of stuff. Yeah and I just wanted to bring that back and hopefully we can keep this bestie thing through even though I will be halfway around the world next year.

I'm going to Japan tomorrow but I'll be back on 23rd so we should meet for Christmas or something okay. I actually have gifts for you guys from Berklee but I forgot to bring it in September so it's going to be your Christmas present now. :D

Take care and I'll talk to you soon.

Your bestie,
Hil

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HILARY

I'm so so so so sorry I just read this mail. It's dated 13th December, and I was at camp at that time! And and this is the first time I'm looking in my mailbox since forever. I think you probably were wondering whether I was ignoring you, I wasn't! I'm so sorry! Crap I'm such a wet blanket, I should have checked my mail earlier :S

Plus we had this chat on msn a few days ago, and I remember asking you when you were leaving and stuff. Looking at it now, I kinda feel embarrassed and guilty because I really had no idea what was going on in your life :( I guess with you in Berklee, hundreds of miles away from home, we have to put in effort to keep in touch, if not we would soon be strangers, right? and NO I haven't forgotten you, it'd take a million years HA.

I'm really glad you've found something you love to do in the form of music. I'm pretty much the opposite since I have no idea what I'm going to do in uni, or the near future. My life's a mess now and I'm trying to rush school work before school starts again :/ Have i mentioned before, I think I'm sick of IB, now and then I would have this thoughts and I would suddenly be surged with a strong sense of regret. Haha remember earlier in 07 I tried to apply into SA, I think I feel more strongly against IB than I did then. Yes that bad. Oh well, I recall a friend saying recently 'Life's unfair, so suck it up!', I'm going to have a tough time sucking it up. That is also why, I'm going to so misssss the holidays man.

Anyway enough with whining. Other than irritating school, I think everything has been going on well. I'm going to get my pilot's license soon! Probably in march or april tops. I still have lets see 3 theory papers to sit for and a practical test they call FHT (Final Handling Test), before the wait is over! Haha then I'd be eligible to fly passengers and maybe one day I might give you a ride lol. Flying, like guitaring has become much like a passion. One of the few that a slacker like me has, oh slacking's a passion too xD Oh but I mentioned my motion sickness problem the other day to you right? That gave me quite a scare since it potentially might have ended my flying career thoughts. Hmm oh well fortunately it eventually turned out fine.

Recently I was part of the organizing committee for my church's youth camp, haha that was when you sent me this email. Planning and executing the camp kept me the slacker busy, so I can say at least I did not totally waste away my holidays like I always have :D You know what, I think this letter cheered me up from my post-holiday blues mood. Thank youuu. I don't know how to explain this but it kinda is a coincidence, because yesterday I was just thinking about the friendships I've made and 'lost' the past year and I thought of ours. I guess this is the chance to 'start again' haha.

Once again, thank you for the mail. It's the thought that counts :D

<3 your bestie
johny

ps. I hope you haven't gotten yourself an accent :D