when you're gone
ambition
relationships
discipline
i can't seem to find a balance juggling all three at the same time. it always is slanted to one or the other, or at most two. somehow it becomes exhausting when i try micromanaging and i eventually give in. right now, i haven't figured out what is driving me to work out, gain weight and do my best in bmt. i really haven't, timmy told me the young recruit will start thinking alot when he settles into tekong, how true. just before sleep, or even when i am standing at attention, my mind wonders beyond camp into the life i once had and towards the people i hold dear. i feel nostalgic mostly, like 'what am i doing here?' or 'what are my friends doing now?'. yes its that sad.
anyway update:
i've enlisted into BMTC School 1. i don't know whether i'm allowed to disclose anymore, but i'm in HAWK company. ok thats about all i'm going to reveal, less i get charged or something. life in tekong has been more than pleasant in my opinion, contributed by various factors. first, i have a good bunch of bunk mates. gangsters i have none, 2 smokers but i have nothing to complain about because they are not allowed to smoke in the room. i'm glad i have people to talk to that share the same conversational wavelength. second, i stay on the second floor, which makes everything sooo convenient. third, i have welfare-oriented sergeants, you can guess what kind of treatment that equates to. fourth, i'm building up my physical fitness! fifth, i gained weight! like almost 3kg.
so ya, life isn't as bad as i thought it would become. life in tekong passes by really fast because everyday is activity packed. morning becomes night really quickly. before i know it, i'll be doing alot of chin-ups, become a fattie and then graduate into a private heh.
i think i'll get used to this really soon. the military life. actually i already have, but it somehow restarts whenever i book out and in. btw i've been listening to avril lavigne alot latelyy, i use it to fall asleep at night haha.
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too.
when you're gone
the words i need to hear to get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.
relationships
discipline
i can't seem to find a balance juggling all three at the same time. it always is slanted to one or the other, or at most two. somehow it becomes exhausting when i try micromanaging and i eventually give in. right now, i haven't figured out what is driving me to work out, gain weight and do my best in bmt. i really haven't, timmy told me the young recruit will start thinking alot when he settles into tekong, how true. just before sleep, or even when i am standing at attention, my mind wonders beyond camp into the life i once had and towards the people i hold dear. i feel nostalgic mostly, like 'what am i doing here?' or 'what are my friends doing now?'. yes its that sad.
anyway update:
i've enlisted into BMTC School 1. i don't know whether i'm allowed to disclose anymore, but i'm in HAWK company. ok thats about all i'm going to reveal, less i get charged or something. life in tekong has been more than pleasant in my opinion, contributed by various factors. first, i have a good bunch of bunk mates. gangsters i have none, 2 smokers but i have nothing to complain about because they are not allowed to smoke in the room. i'm glad i have people to talk to that share the same conversational wavelength. second, i stay on the second floor, which makes everything sooo convenient. third, i have welfare-oriented sergeants, you can guess what kind of treatment that equates to. fourth, i'm building up my physical fitness! fifth, i gained weight! like almost 3kg.
so ya, life isn't as bad as i thought it would become. life in tekong passes by really fast because everyday is activity packed. morning becomes night really quickly. before i know it, i'll be doing alot of chin-ups, become a fattie and then graduate into a private heh.
i think i'll get used to this really soon. the military life. actually i already have, but it somehow restarts whenever i book out and in. btw i've been listening to avril lavigne alot latelyy, i use it to fall asleep at night haha.
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too.
when you're gone
the words i need to hear to get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.
posted by John at
11:28 PM
1 Comments:
BOO. AND GUESS WHO FOUND YOUR BLOG. =D
Roy
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