math portfolio is finally OVER!

Chaos brings order.
Who will you allow to lead you blindly until the end?
You're like a little girl with a stupid crush.
We all sing glory.
We all choke ourselves with our own ignorance.
There is so much more to life than your stupid desires.
Nothing is everything, and everything is something.
Confused? Troubled?
Finding the meaning is looking through the vivid transparencies.
Dance the night away because tomorrow,
we will look back and talk about good times now gone forever.
Trace lines around the image of your choice.
Dance until the end, my friend, and find joy in every living thing.
Optimism is not a choice, it's a belief.

Barbarian by August Burns Red.

i'm scared of being vulnerable.

now who isn't? i remember vividly the catalyst, how i was concentrating on work when i was placed in an unnecessary emotional situation/choice. i wasn't ready for that, girl, and that made me realise things: how far we've gone, what you were and what i didn't want. i think it scared me somehow. most of all i couldn't continue sustaining what i didn't want, it was beginning to tire.

i'm glad time did it's job. i couldn't think of any other way. i'm so sorry.

link, time to move on.

ok so i didn't regret catching step up 2. oh my she's my new love for a week. happy birthday pyung!

all the raining's killing me. at this rate i don't think i'm going to get my license by march. nope don't think so.

tuesday i went to gary's house at night to play guitar hero 2 and 3! then halfway i turned red from the cyder and everyone kept insisting i was drunk when i was perfectly sober. just red and nursing a headache. i think i woke up the next morning with a headache also, plus i had to fly. then the rain had to go ruin it.

yesterday afternoon i played soccer at the cage with the usual gang plus a few others. it was pouring throughout the two hours. after that it continued raining, we went to eat at a hawker centre nearby at the same time waiting for the rain to cease. we waited and talked, waited and talked but it kept pouring :/ so we braved the cold rain to the oh-so-far-away bus stop. have i mentioned my shoes were totally soaked! now they stink. fortunately for wednesday's issue of today and half of paul's umbrella, the rest of my body was kept relatively dry.

i think i've realised new objectives for myself during the break period. motives that will last.

and and, i did not evaporate!

underoath sounds so much like copeland in this song, with exception to the screaming which gave it away. i was listening to underoath on my player when i stumbled upon this song during shuffle, and i thought i accidentally put copeland in the underoath folder. wow man, this song.

anyway, i have alot of deadlines to meet. most urgent one is to complete my pilot license course by the end of march, which at this rate looks like it ain't going my way. then i have my extended essay to hand up. tok essay draft and mock tok presentation :/ physics ia 4, econs ia 3 and 4. bleah. plus i have to have to have to catch up on everything during the week break starting in two days.

my comp crashed yesterday, because i was trying to download a key generator for harrison's call of duty 4. i think i downloaded a virus by accident and everything just crashed and the comp was unwilling to start in normal mode. so i reformatted the harddrive :/

it rained today evening so i didn't get to fly.