battlenet frenzy! i think i should start doing something useful. like restringing my guitar.. or playing the piano. or running in the morning.

exams are finally over, i let out a sigh of relief. but my joy is momentary until results are released :S at least i studied abit more than i did in previous years. which is an improvement, which also means i'll get better grades. but there probably wouldn't be such a big difference. that's bad.. then i can't use my good grades to barter with my parents over owning my own laptop. bleah.

i have a flight tomorrow. i'm not really prepared for it, considering i took a week and a half off to concentrate on my grades. i need to get in the flying mood again.. start memorizing all my checks and think of a strategy to bootlick the instructor. well, once again i need to make time for flying. i'm lagging like mad. now it's worse than before!

anyway, life is so good without having to stress over papers. waking up at 12 can become a routine :) playing dota until 2 can become a routine.

ay someone's teaching at acs as a relief teacher. means i'll be seeing her occasionally for the next month. cheers to that :)

love hurts,
but sometimes it's a good hurt
and it feels like i'm alive.
love sings,
when it transcends the bad things.
have a heart and try me
'cos without love i won't survive.

exams are tomorrow :D and somehow, i already know i will not do as well as expected. all my plans for studying were all talk and not alot of action. anyway, i talked to theodore and he somehow assured me that not doing so well for mid years isn't so bad. he still got 38 total after final years, so i shall live with that :)

i've been playing dota everyday for the past week haha. now i'm going to commit myself to not touching it until thursday afternoon. thats going to be really hard.

i realise i'm broke. i only have two dollars left in my pocket. i intended to get two birthday presents, one for junipher and the other for yanhan. but i ended up only buying one because of cash constraints. and i bought it for junipher haha because her birthday is tomorrow. actually today, and i won't be seeing yanhan until monday. so until then, i can go beg borrow steal money from my mom. okay maybe not steal. oh and i can't believe i forgot yh's birthday :S its not nice giving a belated gift, its even more un-nice to forget someone's birthday and not give him a gift.

i had the best dota game in my life yesterday midnight with my skeleton king! the thing about playing dota is that playing two games takes two hours. and with so many leavers online its hard to even get to play a full game. i had fun though, night time is for play. afternoon is for studying. morning is for sleeping :)

i can't believe i failed jana's quiz. gosh my memory fails me, and i scraped hil's quiz, which isn't any good either. haha i forgot both their addresses even though we've all been there tons :S i mean.. i'm a guy. girl's do have better memory :)

i'm stuck on incubus and three days grace! haha addictive stuff, and their music videos are nice. right now, i'm planning on sleeping, yf anniversary tomorrow! finally i get to go yf, in a long time.. syfc really occupies your saturdays. well not anymore, no more ground school until i get into the license course. i'm bringing along my physics and econs notes tomorrow, i have no choice, if not i'll only have one day to study.. i think i'm not going to do so well this time as planned. ga.

if i turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.

i'm going to do qt now :D

i got into phase two of the basic flying course! consistency is the way to go :D today i flew with mr ng or otherwise known as sir, who happens to be the only flying instructor at syfc who's still in the airforce (which means he's really young). gosh i had a great time in the air although i made a few unforced grave errors. not to mention the fact that the weather was totally horrible, the clouds formed a ceiling at 3000 feet and the horizon couldn't be seen at all. FORTUNATELY, it didn't rain. if not a sacrificed day, which could have been spent revising math, could be just wasted like that.

right now. i think i'm thinking too much. i hope everything works out.

oh why do i have to fall sick on a study day less than a week to exam. sneezing every 3 seconds is not fun. doing chem with a dysfunctional nose is not fun. neither is doing chem fun.

and i have a flight tomorrow. that's great considering i haven't started on my math revision and i only have let's see, 5 days left to study.

endure!

chinese. male. 17.

i think i'm too old for blogging. or rather, my gender and age group isn't suited for blogging. i mean, there ain't alot of high school guys (or jc guys whichever sounds better) around who blog. gosh i think i'm going to stop soon. i'm seriously considering it.

i went studying as a group today. it was fun, and i had alot of help in chem from yanhan. plus its great to see couples together :)

i think written words as a use of communication is really deceptive when it comes to expressing emotions. the element of sincerity just cannot be induced into text messages. gosh, its so hard to tell what a person is feeling without looking at his/her face. ya, the occasional smilies do work. but time and repetition wears away the novelty and meaning.

sometimes i feel, the only reason why you put a smilie in a message is to make the other person feel happy. how do i put it, like it lightens up the mood. don't you feel good seeing a smilie? the presence of a smilie means that person is smiling, isn't it supposed to be like that? so if the person is smiling (in the message), wouldn't you smile too. that would mean a smilie back. then it travels back and forth back and forth. gosh, is smiling forever possible? NO. except for, maybe, like the care bears or something. my point is, i'd prefer talk more and message less. more heart to heart, than superficial indulgence on the immaterial.

in an effort to remove all temptations from my life, i have deleted lamb of god and what not from my music player. i'd probably put hillsong in later. i realise rachel is coming back tomorrow, despite nat's constant bugging, i don't think i'll go fetch her from the airport. it's just too awkward for me to go. that reminder prompted me to go read her blog, and i read this:

People lose their way without an anchor, you know. And for my part, I wonder how it is possible to deny the existence of God... when everything around us shouts of His handiwork. And why, why do you find it so hard to believe in the God who loves?

flying really takes up alot of time. preparation takes forever.. plus its stressful in the air. but i still have no idea why i enjoy it :) have to stop flying temporary next week though, have to have to prepare for exams. like intensive or something.

right now i'm into dishwalla, chevelle, incubus and three days grace. good stuff :D broke up with matthew, plee and whats his name again. dont think i'll ever join back, no time. plus with all the extra commitments now.. i'll have too many things to worry about. gaga. i'm in the youth camp 07 committee doing logistics! which is the most saikang. not only that, i think its about time i get my relationship with God back on track..

the youths have gone on to church camp this morning. hmm i wish i were there. but then again i would virtually be lagging behind everyone at the flying club and i wouldn't have enough time to study. that's a huge opportunity cost. i think there's a time to be mature, and it's now. at least until the exams end.

transformers is coming out on the last day of exams! i want to go watch optimus prime! :D i want to watch fantastic four also. oh i got hooked onto dishwalla and incubus lately. counting blue cars. incubus is really nice, i love their songs. although the word incucus means a demon that descends upon people when they sleep, or nightmare, or something that weighs upon or oppresses one like a nightmare. according to the dictionary. dishwalla doesn't have any meaning, or at least it's not a recognized word.

i can't wait for the day exams conclude. at least those who take the standard physics chem math econs end the earliest! i think the music and bio dudes end on tuesday the following week. we end on thursday the first week! :D that will be a consolation. i officially started mugging today! i have a flight tomorrow so i'll have to revise my flying stuff along with econs. oh well.

it's 2 in the morning and i'm quite sleepy. not sure i'm thinking as efficiently as i normally do. i feel abit tipsy.. just abit.

a few hours of dotaing always tires the eyes. on a more important note: two more weeks to mid years! it is the time to mug :D i'm going to try to recall how enthusiastic i got about my studies in secondary 2.

alot of people are away! close persons.. hmm. i miss a few :D some nice people are dearly missed. i just watched a rugby video on the all blacks on youtube, now i'm all envious and green.. i want some mass!

i want to stay a few more days! i stayed in khon kaen thailand for six days and it was fun. its late now so i'll save the long story for later, but it was fun. those pictures are sneaks.. now i've got other stuff to attend to <3