i'm glad i can hear music on my earphones again. i've been thinking alot lately. not that i don't usually :) but, seriously. its time i start looking beyond the dashboard rather than at the scenery by the window.

haha, silly as it may seem. i've seriously thought of becoming a pilot when i grow up (that would be like in two-and-a-half years time). i would really love to fly. haha the speed of sound is 340m/s at sea level. i'll be faster than that in a jet fighter! hows that for a childhood ambition! :D also, if i were to be enrolled into the airforce, i'll get to skip all the infantry details :) and i'll be an officer for sure ha. maybe i'll move on to sia or something after ns hmm.

then there was the other alternative. the more laid back realistic usual normal job: business. studying never was my forte or like. so what better than to put your wits into your job by managing a business :D and i heard the average business person earns quite alot of dough. dough is good for family starting and raising children yeah. dough is also good for buying car guitar and computer game :D

and the dream occupation: being a professional musician. oh how i wish i wish i wish i could play the guitar in a professional band. hmm first i need to get into berklee. get a studio, go on tour, sell albums, sign autographs, go on tour again, sell more albums and sign more autographs. what a life.

talking about music and bands. i've been listening to punk rock more often than late. i remember the days i was obsessed with dream theater, progressive metal and what not. metallica, guns n roses, avenged sevenfold, petrucci, satriani.. i've finally realised my favourite music: punk. though the simplest to play and the most shallow in musical depth, it is the feel the adrenaline the emo-ness i get from punk rock that i love. i want to be a punk rocker! don't you want to be one too?

note there are no pictures on this post :D

I've had more than my share of
Girlfriends, and don't ever care to
Keep them for more than a year, but
Tonight while safely asleep I've
Fallen into this dream

Where Lucy and I are together forever
A love far too good to be true

And when I wake up
I wanna be happy
So don't forget me
When I wake up
I wanna be happy
So don't forget me

We socialize often times in our own corner
Of the party's audience chatting with each other's
Exes and friends we made love with
Circling the crowd
Speaking very loud
So we can find each other, steal a kiss and cop a feel
In front of everyone

And at the end of the night we're stable and able
To keep things from falling apart

I feel my heart ticking away like a clock
Feel my heart ticking away like a clock
Feel my heart ticking away like a clock
My heart beat's ticking away like a clock
Feel my heart ticking away to an alarming end
To an alarming end

And when I wake up
I wanna be happy
So don't forget me
When I wake up
I wanna be happy
So don't forget me

TAKING PICTURES OF OTHER PEOPLE TAKING PICTURE OF YOU JUST BECAME THE NEWEST TREND! :D







whee! and i used the panorama effect in my phone to take a picture of the DELUGE banner :D you know the one where you take three photos and put them together to form one long conjoined photo!


this was my first attempt :D notice the deliberate attempt to form a new word XD


the perfect picture :) GO DELUGE!

Silhouettes, they all show,

This will pass like yesterday,
The rain will come and wash away,
And fill me with your sweet sweet air,
I cried out and you were there,

Like the wind that I cannot see,
But I know it's there right in front of me,
You're everywhere,
You're everywhere,

I cried wolf to you again,
And then denied this in my head,
Cause I ran to the other side,
Only to then change my mind,

Like the wind that I cannot see,
But I know it's there right in front of me,
You're everywhere,
You're everywhere,
What if I fall?
What if I break?
I'm living life so I'll make my mistakes,
You're everywhere,
You're everywhere,

Silhouettes, they all show,

I'm losing myself again,
And your patient with me,
I'm building these walls again,
Please rescue me,

Silhouettes, they all show,
Silhouettes, would you let me know?

Like the wind that I cannot see,
But I know it's there right in front of me,
You're everywhere,
You're everywhere,
What if I fall?
What if I break?
I'm living my life, I will make my mistakes,
You're everywhere,
You're everywhere,

Silhouettes, they all show

for your information hilary long jia wen. i am not mad and i am not a girl. ha is it wrong to be excited about having a new camera phone? :D

having said that.. SPAM :D


i have to master FLOORBALL! :) saturday's training at church was super energy consuming, plus i probably was the most noob floorball guy there :D


once again. hilary, i am not mad :D


this two idiots here are my brothers XD BOTH OF THEM secured places in both RI and HWA CHONG IP. THEY'RE MAD. and thats soap on his lips. i told you they were idiots XD


i did this on my phone!

the week was long. as usual, i have homework undone. i took public transport home everyday. reached home in time or late for dinner almost everyday. deluge got second at the battle of the bands. can the week get any worse? tomorrow's monday. great.

i almost forgot how it felt like to expel acid from the mouth. the sour. the bitter. the pain. it's the things that you have no control over that you frustrate about. how true it is when i say i have no control over what happens to my physical self. how true it is to say that i can die, wilt or crumble at any moment, whether it is of my choice or not. sometimes, we have to accept the unpredictability of life.

however strange as it may seem, it is through this enlightenment on life's uncertainty, that i have finally realised and come to cherish an invaluable truth.

good friends are forever. in our pursuits to 'obtain' the most number of friends, to be the most popular and recognized, we have slowly, unknowingly forgotten the genuine meaning of friendship. is a friend a variable that is to be counted, filed away and organized according to monetary/social worth?

friend
n.
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

or is a friend someone whom you are able to share your whole life with. your secrets, your feels, your dreams.

John 15:13
'Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. '

i got my new phone today! :D finally i said my farewells to my n-gage. i had actually planned to get a w810i, but it was too expensive. then i had decided to settle for a k750i, but my sister had it too, so since i had a $130 trade-in value phone, i decided to get the w700i! :D

its just fun to have a 2-megapixel camera :)


my first picture. hehe.


then i decided to take random pictures. so heres my regular computer, with my amp just at the corner.


the stairway!


(from left to right) my maestro, my hamer, and err.. my yamaha.


the usual pile of unwanted stuff.


peach tea!

in general, it was a great experience :D

it was as if the earth met the sky in a splash of random paint, when the sun sets. random yet inexplicably resplendent. i was trying to find the stars last night in the somber sky. i remember counting five or six. then reflecting back on the trip to kluang in the wilderness, where the cloudless sky was blanketed with an array of stars, millions of them. i felt a sense of let down.

its times like this, where all of societal's scandals and earthly thoughts are shut out, that you begin reflecting on the nature of the origin of things. philosophy they call it. its times like this that you realise the tangibility of a Creator. the undeniable fact that all things spring forth from a supernatural. no doubt, i've considered the possibility of all things coming forth from nothing, yet the logical odds point to the former.

staring at the stars reminiscing only made me want to be with the stars. how wonderful it would be to be propelled into outerspace. the quietness of vacuum, and the coolness of the absence of heat. peace and serenity. twas a great place to recollect the complications of life. life. emotions, instincts, schedules. i wish they never existed, then life would be innocent and pure. innocence and purity, the things we never will completely possess. the cruelty of reality.

it looks like things will never be the way before adam took that bite.

1 Thessalonians 5:21
'Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.'

i finally FINALLY restringed my hamer. after a month or so. can you believe it, i haven't touched my guitar in more than a month! well i haven't exactly got all the time in the world to get strings. looking back now, i think it was a blessing in disguise. it was during this one month that i got my new acoustic guitar and started playing daphne loves derby, john mayer and what not.

now its back to distortion, crunch and phasers. i can't believe i just finished work! for once i'm getting my academic life in order.

helpless. i know i'm in perfect control of my life. i know what i'm doing, what i plan to do next, not in the long run but at least i plant my feet on the ground. well, its my life, my hands, my eyes, my choice. no one could change the way i perceive things, no one but One. the things i do i think before putting to action. i aim not to and dare not offend, displease or provoke anyone. and i haven't, or at least i expect that from the average community. i seek His help before making decisions, for He IS omnipotent.

what disturbs me. is looking at others twisting their lives in knots that always or usually ends up in a suffocating deadlock. why. why do you have to do the things you do. if i were you, my hands would be kept in my pockets, unwilling to hurt. i want to help, you are unaware, yet i seek refuge in the shadows my mouth dare not tell you. that you are hurting hearts. not one heart. hearts.

i can do anything with me, myself. yet i can't help you. the laughs and smiles, a cover on top the ruptured heart. well, i am human and not diety. life, though arduous and perplex, is defined by God. purposeful and without lackluster. i want you and everyone else to enjoy it. if you would just realise this. if only.






with love.

Romans 8:28
'And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.'

it seems like fighting just became the the latest trend. its happening everywhere around me! and it ain't good for the faint of heart. that would be me.

great, first it was school now its at home.

on a lighter note, it was YF 50th ANNIVERSARY yesterday! and i shared about my experiences in yf :D i've really experienced God's presence in my life ever since youth camp last year, all the commitments i've made only brought me closer to Him :D

Philippians 4:13
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'

Hurray to that!

SHAO WEI, AMOS, DALTON, JHAN GOT THROUGH TO THE BATTLE OF THE BANDS FINAL :D was there ever a doubt.

haha this achievement inspired paul lee to want to be part of a band.

and GREAT. my youngest brother confirmed his entry into hwa chong ip through dsa. my other brother is on the waiting list and my mum says he stands a high chance. i remember i first told both of them that they didn't stand a chance in getting selected for gep, then after the results were revealed, BOTH OF THEM GOT IN.

right now. theres this huge conflict going on between the acs guitar orchestra and chamber orchestra. i don't know how this thing started and i don't intend to find out. my take: ENJOY GOD, FRIENDSHIP AND MUSIC. so lets all just kiss and make up. things WILL become so much better.

MY WALLET IS EMPTY. for the first time in ages. i have no idea where i spent everything :( oh well, no sweat, pocket money tomorrow.

my sole is nearly entirely recovered! ha i can't believe the speed at which the wound healed itself. when i first got inflicted i couldn't stop bleeding, and now it doesn't even hurt abit! hurray to that :D

then there was IP symposium. matthew virtually did all the work this past three days, and although i'm trying to deny it, i feel guilty. for not doing any much work. and matthew got so upset about it after the presentation today. ah wells. and he's been pestering me to reband and play GLASGOW KISS. as much as i want to reband, no. i suddenly have this strong detest to play progressive metal or any overly instrumental works like petrucci's. i know matthew CAN play petrucci, but i don't want to. thats final.

during the three day duration of symposium, i've been checking out youtube alot. and guess what! i found anti-flag :D

One Trillion Dollars
Turncoat

the one trillion dollars abit gory at the end i admit.. be warned :D

AND OH YES.



HAYLEY IS HOT. PARAMORE IS COOL. and i've got to get to know more punk rock bands with female vocals..! forget guano apes XD

Pressure

today was slack, fits me just right. we spent a whole morning at the national library doing nothing constructive work.

tomorrow is likely to be a repeat of today. except i'll probably be half dead after watching the morning match.

and lately, after my crave for anti-flag subsided abit, not disappear, i once again got hooked on to MAE and DAPHNE LOVES DERBY. hoo i remember immediately smsing mel after i heard SUN live by mae again in a VERY LONG TIME. and today morning, i tried playing the piano part. it was fairly okay until i came upon the lemifemipemihemidemisemiquavers. i need to get the official scores!! its time i improve on my piano skills. i need to level up!

on a random note: i want bbq!

it was youth day yesterday. as i had agreed with serene to do ushering, i had to wear formal during service. yes thats right, long sleeves shirt, tie, long pants and black shoes. haha i remember job saying i looked smart. well i am :D

then i stayed in church for awhile after lunch, cos i had planned to meet jana at 4.30 to go to hil's place together. played guitar and chess in the clubhouse until then to make time fly.

THEN OFF TO KALLANG WE WENT. haha jana hardly takes mrt, we were supposed to stop at cityhall then change over, i remember telling her somemore. then, she had to talk to me, and we had to miss a stop. ITS ALL YOUR FAULT NA XD lucky we didn't end up at marina bay. we met bernard and mich at kallang, they were both stoning thanks to the big guy who was talking on his phone.

once at hilary's condo it was PURE FUN :D


some people cannot make it sia..

before the sun disappeared, we were sitting around messing with the barbeque pit, not of much help but still trying. i didn't try at all XD, i was playing soccer with hil's neighbours. i would just be a burden if i went anywhere near the pit, that was when hilary's grandaunt came to the rescue! haha i remember the girls telling racist jokes under the hut, and MEL WAS HER USUAL SLOW SELF :D

then the night came, and something we had planned a year ago to do, yet did not do, was going to be done :D


me and bernard walking away into the dark. we were supposed to be scheming against the girls. yet on na's blog it says i'm the victim! bernard=scheming!


i decided to be smart and trust someone else :D

then after much tries and struggles, still no one got dunked into the pool. then na decided to take pictures at the edge of the pool. with hilary at the edge :D


haha i'm surprised hil didn't see it coming. hail ah lians!


aww someone's all wet XD

after somemore struggles, we got michelle! actually she volunteered cos bernard agreed to fund her taxi fare on the way home.


smart me had to go stand so close to the pool while lifting mich..


that it gave bernard a chance to push me in haha. that makes three people wet.

na eventually got pushed in as well. haha and we were wondering how to get bernard into the pool. the iron pumper with big arms and muscles haha. then we finally succeeded, four girls and a guy vs one iron pumper = everyone wet!




haha yes thats my brother..

i soon caught a cold and the night got later. so we went up to hilary's house to dry up.


this was supposed to be a group photo! as you can see i changed into the formal clothes i had worn earlier on in the morning.

then home we went when it became late. me na mich and bernard, mel had left earlier, camping at the roadside waiting for taxis.


taxi taxi..


i was so bored.. i think we had waited almost an hour for a taxi! yet alone two!


it was a night to remember :D and i'll never forget! we finally got two taxis home. i remember falling straight into bed when i reached home.

haha i want somemore. and na.. i'm finally done :) yes no more waiting.

GREAT. I INJURED MY SOLE :(

if i look at it at an optimist's view, it won't kill me. on the other hand, i won't be able to play soccer for two weeks at least :(

and YES LEHMANN IS GOOD. theres a reason why he's at arsenal. oh my first the 2005 FA cup final penalty save against paul scholes, then the villareal 89th minute penalty save against juan riquelme, now this. WHOOHOO :D