Tuesday, June 28

ho ho

i'm bored.

played GUNZ just now. its such a fun game. i still can't believe its a FREE online game. plus the graphics are SOO good. haha. everyone play!

finished my ERP finally. 652 words. i know its not enough but who cares. who cares? ;)

we showed the class our R&J video todayy. haha. everyone loved it.. or i think they did :)) i hope they did.

SNGS concert is this thursday. thursday is also the deadline for my ERP and a maths.

oh oh, and shao wei lent me 'hot action cop's cd. oh its SOO nice. mix of punk rock, rock and rap. whoa, i'v never heard this kinda music before, now i have :))

Monday, June 27

eee

JONATHAN HAN IS QUITTING LETTERHEAD!

why jonathan? why do you wanna quit? its just so sudden. just right after the school of rock auditions, he quits. and its official. now shao wei is suggesting i take jhan's place as bassist for the competition if they make it past the auditions. eee, i can't imagine myself playing for letterhead. i'm pinkfudge man. why?

anyway, school started on a rather bright note. functions assignment and erp deadlines are extended to thursday. giving me more time yay.

guess what?! my class teacher is pregnant! yipeedoo, haha, mdm dharma is finally with child. a few months she will apply for maternity leave and then we wont have language arts lessons haha.

me and dalton made a sort of deal :)) a really nice one. i traded motivation for getting up in the morning by pug jelly and seventeen days by 3 doors down for anatomy of the tongue in cheek and mmhmm by relient k from dalton. yay. haha relient k rocks.

Sunday, June 26

boo hoo

yesterday was fun.

went for mg string concert to cheer michelle. hee, went with hilary only. na and mel couldnt make it, and bernard went there with his sister. the concert was okiee, just that it was kinda too short, it was supposed to be one hour yarr, but it only lasted like 45 mins? and there was no intervals or intermissions so it ended early. and the funny thing is the people watching, or at least the majority didnt know they werent supposed to clap between movements, especially the last piece. everyone clapped in between the four movements, i was playing worms ;)

guess who else i met there.. matthew, edwin and fraser, and jit yew too. and we were talking about how i missed 24 hours of guitar for ncc camp. ms ng's gonna get really mad. oh well.

after the really quick concert, me and hilary decided to go to na's house! haha, cos it kinda was still an early night. so we took taxi from blackmoore to j8. and met na there. did i tell you how big her house is? its really big, and she has SO many instruments laa, electric violin, guitar, grandd piano, electric guitar.. i cant help but feel envious hmm. we called up mel, and na was talking about how mel missed her alot. and we checked out her really really huge correction tape collection :) sometimes you wonder whether some people have nothing better to do ;))

had a great time, went home at like 10 plus. continued conferencing with the rest and slept early. z z Z

woke up today morning, went to church. met up with gerald and michael and went macs at j8 for breakfast. we managed to arrive back at church in time for yw. later i'm gonna try complete the rest of my holiday homework. i hope i finish.

Friday, June 24

when the going gets tough..

the tough gets going.

although very reluctantly, i became abit enthu about ncc for the first time since last year. it wasn't as tough as i thought it would be, but the tests were all scary, cos i didnt study or prepare for anything..

yeah but things turned out fine.. slept late everyday, woke up at like 4.45 once. so the food was better than usual, so the CLTs were nicer than usual, so the cheering was fun, so what? ;) i mean, so what? big deal.

okiee, so it was kinda better than expected, i kinda enjoyed myself, behind all the suffering and sweating. and i learned to strip an m16 yay, plus assemble it back together. oh oh and throughout the camp i had this whole rifle-pointed-at-me-phobia thing going on. i was super scared of the rifle nozzle laa, especially when it was pointed at me. in my face. my forehead. one mistaken bullet loaded into a supposed empty magazine could send me flying back. breathless. heart not beating. blood gushing. ohh man, how it freaked me out. i was scared, very scared.

and the sickos kannan and prahbu. how gay can gay get mann. prahbu was delibrately making funny noises at night on the bed and kannan was recording it! the whole bunk was listening to them, including me. i couldn't sleep. they did that for all three nights laa. and kanna stroked me on the hand one time and i was like, what the toot did you just do to me?!, and i stared at him. he stared back and started laughing and i started laughing. i knew he was trying to act gay. but that was abit too gay.

there were alot of fun and funny times at the camp, including cheering. oh how i love cheering! haha, i shouted so much i lost my voice on the third day. but that didnt stop me from shouting somemore :) oh and the cheers are so funny, created by acs(i) ncc cadets original.

Tinky Winky (echoe)
Dipsy (echoe)
La La (echoe)
Po (echoe)
We are hungry (echoe)
We are hungry (echoe)
Can we eat?
Pleeaassee..!


couldnt help but shout my heart out. and oh, for the first time in my life, i managed to sprint in a run longer than 2.4! yay, no stitches no pain just sweat and fun. i never knew runs were fun and it rhymes somemore :) . haha.

i just remembered something i dread at camp. doorless cubicles! ah. i remembered camp feast when i stepped into the toilet to bathe. there were no doors to the showers, just curtains! there was this trust thing involved, you have to trust that the fellow campmates were straight. i remembered the second day, some guy went to open the curtain of his friend's cubicle for fun, what an ugly sight man, and i was just behind him queuing. that made me wonder whether the same thing would happen to me, plus the toilet was always filled with guys queuing in front of the cubicles. in this kinda situation.. you just gotta pray that nothing bad happens to you, or.. you dont bathe. oh yarr the cubicles were always flooded, cos the drainage was clogged. yeah, sick. standing on murky water bathing.

i met many new friends from dunman, unity, cath high, sji.. haha, all from eagle 2 were great. although i didnt quite like my CLT, but she was fine. oh and sock mui thanked me for helping her retrieve her pen from inside the drain, haha yay. surhan was the best leader a cadet could have, he was soo sporting. and mark koh, the bullshitter, haha he talks too much. too many people to mention.. haha and people know me better as C E FOO rather than john. haha

oh and i brought my bible there haha, didnt get to read it though. the schedule was too packed, just spent time praying abit at night and saying grace during the wonderful meals. yay, at least i passed the test and became a spec.. now i can make people do push-ups instead of the other way round! yay

quoting one of the staff sergeants: everyone fights, no one quits. you either fight or die fighting. yeah quite inspirational i feel.

oh well, i think that was all for camp, i missed so many people, friends family friends family. ah well, i'm back.

Monday, June 20

gone for now

oh so gonna miss my sleeping bag at home, and my pillow and my bolster :(

i'm leaving for ncc spec course soon. four days three nights of ncc. gonna miss my family and friends. bleah.

'Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.' John 14:6

Sunday, June 19

always and forever

i'm soo tired. and i still have infinite amounts of work undone. all i can do is worry, the end of the hols is approaching, and quick.

i cant help but feel guilty, i'v been worrying so much and doing all sorts of stuff, i'v unknowingly neglected my quiet time. yd today really enlightened me, and i became so spiritually refreshed. the new teacher is really nice.

you are holy.

yes. the song just popped into my head, Always and Forever.

There's nothing better
Than living for you
Saving my world with you,

There's nothing better
Than praising your name
And lifting my praise
Wanna spend forever
Standing in ur presence

And i wanna show you
What you mean to me god
I give you my whole life
And i gotta tell you
That i am urs forever
Lord i give you my whole life

Jesus i will live for you
In everything i do
I'm holding onto you
Always!
Always and forever..
And when my world is falling down
In you i will be found
I'm staying in ur arms today
Always! always and forever..

There's nothing better
Than living for you
Saving my world with you,
There's nothing better..
And i wanna show you
What you mean to me god
I give you my whole life


indeed Lord, i will live for you, always and forever.

amen.

Saturday, June 18

work undone

its the 18th of june, the middle of the holidays. or what seems to be the middle. i just realised i only have 9 days to complete my work, minus 4 days of ncc camp days, i only have 5 days left. hmm.. lets see whats undone..

i haven't borrowed 'the crucible' let alone read it. and its quite a thick book i heard, i wonder whether i can finish it in 5 days, on top of all the other skool work.

yes, i still havent read the thick chinese book we'r supposed to read. lets see, there's hundred over pages of chinese words to read. i'm going to faint if i even attempt finishing it by end of june.

and theres the maths 'magic cube' thingie paul and eugene were talking about. they were saying how they had no idea at all as to what to do.. hmm, that means i probably wont be able to solve it too when i see it.

i'v ordered the towels for the prefect dinner already, thats quite an accomplishment, considering i'm a busy person :D

oh, so much work undone and only 5 free days to complete them. sigh* i wonder whether i should worry and do something, worry and do nothing, or don't worry and slack. the last just seems like the ideal thing to do.. but i know i'l probably get screwed after the holidays.

oh, hilary misses singapore, and she's kinda sad. cheer up okayy if you read this :))

nothing else to say, i just came back from church anniversary dinner, it wasn't exactly nice but yeah, i was a guai boy for once and sat with my parents instead of with my friends, unlike my sister haha. family day is next saturday, i wonder whether i should go or stay home and complete my work. my mum is kinda grumbling about how i'm a big slacker and stuff, i know she's right though ;)

oh well, lets just pray that God will grant me speed and wisdom to complete the rest of my work.

Friday, June 17

AirPork!

i just had a stark realisation that pigs can fly : Airpork!

haha, so its set. pinkfudge will be famous, after matthew returns from japan that is. can't wait to start on our new songs.

anyway, today was kinda bad for me cos i woke up with a bad case of flu. hmm.. it never got better as the sun rose and set. and my mum didn't seem to realise the fact that i wasn't feeling well despite my continuous sneezing and the sick look on my face. she insist that i carry on studying, wheres the welfare?. oh man, so i struggled with a leaking nose.

i eventually decided to take an hour nap, and when i finally woke up i felt wide awake and much better. yay. haha, i hate colds and flus.. oh oh me and my brothers played soccer in the living room with our new ball, my mum got kinda pissed cos she was afraid we would break the furniture and tear down the house.. haha oops.

yay, just so glad study time is over, meeting paul, wilbur, eugene and edmund tomorrow for r&j final touch ups. yay, we'r gonna have fun :D

Thursday, June 16

conferences resume

hmm..

i so miss conferences. so happy bernard called me to tell me group 4 was conferencing! na and mel smsed me earlier but i kinda didnt here the vibration of my phone. i think i exceeded my talk time already, my mum's gonna go abit mad.

oh well, haha enjoyed conferencing as always. jana has a fever and serious cough, oh i hope you get well soon! she was coughing throughout the whole conference, she sounded really unwell. but that didnt keep her from talking still ;) oops. haha, anyway she left the conference early leaving me bernard and mel.

oh, i found out mel likes switchfoot and that she's a good girl, haha. and i also found out bernard's a good boy, and that i'm the bad boy cos i use ares :) haha in any case i'v stopped using it for some time now.

just put down the phone not too long ago.. now i'm listening to relient k and sum 41. 'i so hate consequences' is so nice! ah, if only pinkfudge was anywhere near relient k.. hmm, the day pinkfudge becomes famous is the day pigs fly. maybe pigs will one day grow wings, who knows.. even fishes have wings now.

ah well

Wednesday, June 15

i'm back

hey

spent an hour plus at the checkpoint. finally i can say i'm home. yes, everything was kinda better than i expected. the shopping was the best part, or maybe the only good part. haha.

i bought a new ball, pump and a puma bottle, plus New Found Glory's Catalyst. my mum bought lotsa shirts, t-shirts for me, i'm soo happy! oh oh there was this new ride at genting, its called the flying coaster i think. its so fun! goes upside down and downside up again and again, whee! we spent most of our time at the theme park queuing seriously speaking, so tiring standing all the time.

the journey was long, i spent most of my time listening to music on my player. i started wondering why i loved sum41 so much. hmm.. so i decided to change my background music for my blogg to 'slipping away' by sum41. oh i so love 'open your eyes' and '88'. one thing bout sum41, their songs are all in the minor key..

anyway, i'v been missing home and people at home. yes na that includes you ;) haha, just glad i'm back, or else i'm really going to be sick.. home sick. yeah..

just pondering, i just realised i really am crappy mel ;)

Sunday, June 12

i just realised

i just realised that in 5 hrs i'l not be in singapore anymore.
i just realised i love sum41 alot, as in alot.
i just realised i just had probably the best dinner in my entire 15 yrs of living.
i just realised how pretty my sister looks in formal wear.
i just realised how good i look in formal wear.
i just realised i miss jana and hil.
i just realised i'm going to miss mel and bernard and serene and everyone in singapore.
i just realised that i'm going to miss someone more than others.
i just realised i'l be back in four days.
i just realised four days is 96 hrs.
i just realised 96 hrs is a hell lot of minutes and seconds.
i just realised genting has a theme park.
i just realised theme parks are fun.
i just realised that i'l be having fun.
i just realised i think too much.
i just realised that i realise too much.
i just realised that its bed time.
i just realised i have to go.
i just realised that i'm sleepy.

goodnite world

Saturday, June 11

when two people come together

so tired

just came back from the grandest wedding i'v been to in my entire life. i thought it was some normal wedding some normal people getting married. ha, but i was wrong. looks like my mum has friends in high places. there were THREE ministers there laa. the funny thing about the whole thing is that i didn't know anyone at the dinner except maybe, my mum and my sis. my mum only knew ONE person there and that was the bride. we felt wierd sitting with strangers, friendly european strangers. strange.

anyway, my dad and my two brothers attended a wedding too. but at a different place, different people getting married. isn't it a coincident. theirs had like a thousand people present, that means a hundred tables. thats ALOT. oh, my brothers just came back. they look like they enjoyed themselves, i know i kinda did. all the sharksfin abalone and stuff. oh oh, i havent eaten that good food in a long time.

being at a wedding dinner really gets me wondering.. when will i get married? how will my bride be like? hmm.. okayy, maybe i'm too young to think of this kinda stuff. how many children will i have?

oops

Friday, June 10

oooh

haha

you noticed. i changed my layout. hilary created it and she was so nice to take time out and sort out my blogg stuff and put them in the right order. everything's bout the same, just the layout's changed thats all. yeah, even the music's the same! little things

today was boring. i woke up close to twelve, my mum didnt even bother waking me up. my sis was in school for volleyball early. we went to macs at heartland mall for lunch yess. and then we went to shop awhile for jeans at giordano.. guess what i met my little sister there! slacker she. she was supposed to go home straight after volleyball but she went to shop instead.. naughtee naughtee ;)

went home did over 100 physics mcq questions, i had alot of fun, not. finally finished. then watched tv. then i turned on the com. talking to mel now. thats bout it i guess. oh yaa, i thought of a name to call our new song : wasting my time.

Thursday, June 9

bored at home

i cant believed i played lan til 11 plus last nite. haha, theres always a first. played dota with my brothers. what amateurs (experienced newbs i call them) haha. played three games won all, no deaths just tons of mMmMonster kills and double kills ;). haha. loved it

jana just left the island this morning. aww, i'm going to miss her. although she kinda talks alot ;) but yea conferences are boring without her. i speak from experience. chokes. speaking of which, hilary is also leaving tomorrow to aussie, my goodness lucky her. i'm leaving soon too, this sunday is a good day. gonna miss this tiny island i call home.

bleah,

went to hmv on tuesday hoping i'l find panic amongst the cds but in vain. ah, i'l just wait for a few more days, yea it'l come out by then.

so bored at home, nothing to do but homework. picked up my guitar and started some lyrics for some new song i hope will get past the draft state soon. ahh, oh well..

mumble grumble

Monday, June 6

romeo and juliet

just returned from eugene's house. what can i say, his house is cool. oh my, it is so well furnished plus colour combo and everything, it just fits so perfectly. unlike mine, where everything is all over the place..

anyway, we were doing the r&j video which is due end of the hols.

My teamo supremo (in no order of merit):

Paul - leader cum producer (Montague)
Eugene - member (Benvolio)
Wilbur - member (Gregory / Prince)
Edmund - member (Sampson / Capulet)
Me - extra (Abraham / Romeo)

we got together and discussed yes. i was the earliest to arrive, kinda early by 15 mins oops. following paul, wilbur and then my my our very late edmund. we talked bout the props our roles and the action. haha, i cant imagine myself as romeo man. and our props include screwdrivers, fake tatoos and all kinds of nonsense. we'r meeting up on wednesday at edmund's house to get the video done. kinda hasty but the remaining of the hols are kinda packed and not everyone can meet on the same date. woohoo, we'r going to make one hell of a video man. cant wait to see ourselves in action.

guess what, jana hilary and melodie kinda created a friendster account for me. wow, i'm so touched but yaa, i dont use friendster. sorrie guys. went to check it up, na kinda messed around with my profile. i deleted most of the stuff and messed it around somemore. i'l leave it alone for now, maybe i'l eventually decide to use friendster.

in a million years

Saturday, June 4

amused or shocked?

yes

i didnt know how to react. it isnt the first time i confess, but the last one was pretty much ancient. i dont even know whether what happened was actually what it seemed to be.

how to put it?

a girl said something. >>quote<< im like so smitten with you >>unquote<< not actually said but sms. okayy, i was shocked, pause, am i awake? splash some water in my face, someone please? i pinched myself, i remembered i did, and i confirmed i was awake.

the thing is that i hardly know her laa, let alone you know. nevermind, anyway i smsed her back saying i didn't you know like her laa. she replied back saying oh she didnt like me but was complimenting me. i hope she was telling the truth. i know i did.

anyway, i dont wanna hear no more nonsense from no one. my life's abit too complicated at the moment. i thought it was simple, i was wrong.

Friday, June 3

body problems

ooohh..

i woke up this morning with a dry throat. i tried to spit something out but nothing seems to exit. its those days when you just cant sing or speak properly, let alone talk. yes, i immediately grabbed a cup of water after i left the comforts of my bed, my comfy sleeping bag.

stretch

i did. my stomach was growling, hungry. i rushed to the kitchen and grabbed a cupcake, it was lying harmlessly on the table. mmhmm. after i gobbled it up, the remaining morning was a dread, i slumped onto the sofa. my stomach was in pain agony. ahh. i didn't feel like going for guitar in the afternoon.

i did eventually go though. enduring an empty stomach, i didnt feel like eating anything. miraculously i lasted four hours and i managed to finish a bag of chips, with the help of ian, haha. cope-er.

after a long day at skool, i went to the childrens' camp site at SGPS. haha, my brothers acted as twin bandits robbing some small poor guy. so cute haha. one thing i noticed, shermaine and samantha and their mom have gone a bit toO tan. must be the sun. wheelchair.

went home with an empty stomach, no lunch no dinner. aww, i was hungry.

Thursday, June 2

moments of refreshing

i was asleep

when a jolt of cold air drilled down my spine, refreshing my aching bones and tiring muscles. i was awake. right awake.

last saturday i was at sentosa, with the other youths having a wild of a time. i thought i saw fraser and other cross country peeps running a long long run. anyway, out of nowhere serene popped the question: 'why haven't you been blogging?' and i remembered. i remembered my blog, i had a blog? oh yes, i had one. its been a long time since i last blogged.. 16th may.

i just don't know whats going on within me man, in my heart, my head. i'm stupid. my life's lowest grades appeared this year. 66.6%. the number's embedded in my freaking head. it caused so much upset by my parents. whats with parents and bad grades man, its not like i became a bankrupt or something, my life is per normal. per normal. same person, same face, same everything. arg, their whining disgust me.

Voice It Out. That was the theme of MEp camp. at first, i thought it was some crappy singing camp. and you know most guys cant sing rite.. like me. ironic how i'm lead singer of my band. anyway, it turned out to be differente. i quite enjoyed myself, and quite wished it were a little longer. amazingly (i'm being quite honest), i felt this attraction to someone. crush. i'v never felt this wayy since.. since her. even after the performance, i had this butterfly feeling in my gut lol. i haven't felt that in a long time. a long long time. someone save me from this helplessness. i didn't dare utter a single word, to that person. quite unlike me.

refreshed. yupp, that's what i feel now. refreshed. i feel like i could level mountains.. shift seas. it'l last for awhile. awhile. i hope it lasts longer.