i feel like a hero, and you're my heroine.
do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

i got to know 'boys like girls' from my sister. and they're really nice! they sound so familiar yet i can't associate them with any other band. weird..

time for study camp, rt oral, camp logistics, ee intro and outline, econs ia, chem ia, flying pfl. it seems the holiday is busy, i didn't know holidays were supposed to be like that.

we speak of prince and maiden, and happy-ever-after. i could get used to the idea of utopia :D

lol, benlee me paul john chen and benlee's classmate were on bnet. chen hosted, this was after i said john chen was from hong kong and john chen started the game. one guy left immediately after chen clicked the start button, then we all zhao straight away. we were damn pissed, haha.

even though exams are over, i realise i still feel pressed for time and rushed. i have to clear my airlaw in-house paper by tomorrow when i haven't even started reading the notes! plus the fact that i'm in yf camp comm doubles my workload. i have to sacrifice bs time tomorrow to clear my in-house exam. after which i have to rush to church for meeting :(

and it's post-exam period, so i'm kinda in a dota frenzy mood. so i want to make time for the important stuff, yet i am really distracted by the comp. grrrr.

i had an rt oral session with my flying instructor today, half the time i had no idea what was going because i missed the first lesson. so many people set in today it could be considered a lecture. on top of ho samantha jamie and me, like 6 other people all woried over rt oral joined us. haha, i'm amused at how my flying instructor calls me johnboy. it's weird no one at the flying club calls me john. by my course mates i'm known as foo ce (pronounced foosey), some call me foo. oh darn my flight got cancelled again due to rain, i have to flex now that i haven't flown in two weeks. i have a feeling i'm going to play dota later.. anyway below is a google earth screenshot of seletar aerodrome. the 'K' near the bottom left is syfc <3<3

exams are over yay. i've been spending my time on dota and watching this taiwan serial on dvd that my sister bought. and i suddenly have this strange infatuation with rainie yang. she is the epitome of cuteness! if you would have one person to describe cute and bubbly, it'll be her. she stole my eyes away, haha for awhile at least.

i failed math. this is the first time the fact can be confirmed even before i get my results back. the rate of my decline in the area of mathematics has been drastic, i look at the question and i don't even get what i'm supposed to do. then i look at the marks: 22 marks, great gg. it's hard to accept i have to go for study camp after exams, and math is going to pull my average down like galore. i already told my dad and mum my predictions, and fortunate for me they took it in stride. i feel like a failure o.O

lucky tomorrow's a break. right now i'm contemplating whether to spend the rest of the weekend doing math or physics. if i do math, i probably wouldn't obtain constant returns to scale and the chances of salvaging a pass are tremendously slim since i seriously screwed up paper one. this is bad my motivation to study is lacking :(

so many things have happened lately. i've been thinking about those things since math paper stirred me into a bad mood. it's like i feel extremely contemplative now..

my dad quit his job of 20 years with east coast town council! he just joined his new company at the start of this week, marina properties if i'm not wrong. he's into property management, so for the past 20 years or so he's been managing hdb estates and government property in the eastern area. according to him he got his last promotion a very long time ago, and because it's not possible to get promoted anymore the only other form of incentive is getting a payrise, and he hasn't got a payrise in a long time too. that was why he decided to apply for another job. which is good, because according to economic theories our family's real income increases, along with living standards! my dad is playing his part in raising the gdp per capita lol. and his new job sounds impressive. the company owns properties like marina square mall and fullerton hotel haha what the hell.

plus.. i'm moving house soon! probably mid of october come november around then. my mummy and daddy bought a maisonette in hougang, and according to them and my siblings it's a really nice quiet place. i'm the only person in the family who hasn't seen the house yet haha. oh well. i'm having mixed feelings moving into a new home. i will kinda miss my present home of.. let me count, 8 years? i can still remember moving houses. on the other hand i have a direct bus home from school now, which means it's more convenient :) anyway i'm told we can always come and visit the old house as and when we want, haha camp over the holidays or something. my mum suggested turning it into a mini hostel by renting it out to china scholars LOL. eeeeee.

i've been going home with chloe recently. usually we hitch a ride back in duane's car but then due to exams he's been going out with other friends to study. the last 3 days we've been talking about alot of stuff, and she got me thinking quite abit. we talked about everybody in class lol, about there, concentrating on a few prominent ones. it's quite nice to have heart-to-heart talks :) i can think of a few. one with duane a few weeks ago when i camped at his house to prepare our tok presentation, we lay down in bed talking about everyone in class and recent events for two hours or so. then i remember giving advice to pyung about him breaking up with.., we talked on the phone for a really long time and i remember being in the train then. haha and when i told chloe that, she challenged my credentials on giving other people advice on matters of the heart :) then i told her much experience is not needed in things like this, all you need is a wise mindset and to think things through clearly first. but, having experience helps too xD anyway, i think heart-to-heart talks are important, i don't know why, maybe it serves as a reality check? it allows you to realise and rediscover the things that really matter. oh well, she later mentioned op, asking why i haven't talked to her in ages. that question i couldn't answer. i really don't know what the situation has become, actually i don't mind the way things are now. it really is awkward whenever i'm around her now. chloe kept repeating her point on how i should fix the relationship, and i stuck to mine on letting time do its thing. -sigh-

it's one now and i just bid rachel goodnight and i've been talking to pyung for the past hour or so. i'm still awake, and windows media player is playing 'how far we've come' by matchbox twenty. i believe the world is burning to the ground. oh well, i guess, we're going to find out. let's see how far we've come, let's see how far we've come. i really am so contemplative slash moody now. mugging resumes tomorrow, and i don't know what's my drive now. oh well, there's the secret getaway! haha yay first reason to smile, i really really really really can't wait for that. it's been updated everyday since monday :) happy happyy.

although i really feel like talking about how the beatles rock and how i like the song 'i want you, she's so heavy', i'm going to stop now. probably wait for the next time i feel like vomitting my emotions out.

i want you
i want you so bad babe
i want youuuuu
i want you so bad it's driving me mad
it's driving meeeee mad