Friday, March 31

I'm going for YF tomorrow, first time in a month now. All thanks to my theory exam and guitar performance at barker road.

I will probably have to finish up all my homework in the morning, if not it'll drag into sunday afternoon. Thats bad, I will then have to wake up early :(

Arsenal v Aston Villa tomorrow! But I'l probably skip it, save my eye power for next week's second-leg clash with Juventus. I'm predicting a trashing X)

Its getting bored these days, so I came up with my second compilation!

My Heavy Songs:

1.Awaken - Disturbed
2.Find The Real - Alter Bridge
3.Honor Thy Father - Dream Theater
4.Fuel - Metallica
5.Forsaken - Skillet
6.Rawk Fist - Thousand Foot Krutch
7.Headstrong - Trapt
8.Eat You Alive - Limp Bizkit
9.Burn Burn - Lost Prophets
10.My Sweet Shadow - In Flames
11.Stricken - Disturbed
12.Sleepwalking - Blindside
13.And The Hero Will Drown - Story Of The Year
14.The Bitter End - Sum41
15.Tourniquet - Evanescence
16.Undying - Demon Hunter
17.Never Will I Break - 3 Doors Down

Some songs actually aren't exactly that heavy, but what the foo, as long as its nice, it satisfies! Now I have one cd for the journey (by car) to school, and one back! :)

Thursday, March 30

Arsenal won, and they deserved it :) I'M SO HAPPY. Its the type of football that you enjoy watching, seeing your favorite club win with style.

I haven't had much sleep this week; staying up to watch football and staying up to do my ISO. I always end up napping on the class table, or the class chair, or the floor, whichever is more comfortable.

I STILL HAVE DUE HOMEWORK. And its not because of my unwillingness, but I can't do a thing if I don't understand the question. Maths. A.MATHS.

I can't wait for the second-leg of the champions league. I CAN'T WAIT :D

I fell in love with the girl at the rock show
She said 'what?' and I told her that I didn't know
She's so cool, better sneak in through her window
Everything's better when she's around
Can't wait until her parents go out of town
I fell in love with the girl at the rock show

Tuesday, March 28

I'm staying up to watch Arsenal win :)

Sunday, March 26

I notice I haven't been blogging of late.

Partly because everytime I log into blogger, I can't think of anything to write, then I would just log off.

Secondly, 99% of the time I spend on the comp, I spend playing maple. Yes, the mind degenerating game. It takes like eight hours to level so yar, there you have it, the reason I've not been blogging.

I just made my first CD compilation, and I named it 'John's Punk Rock Compilation 1'!
The song list is as follows:

1.Lights And Sounds - Yellowcard
2.Until The Day I Die - Story Of The Year
3.They Perched On Their Stilts, Pointing And Daring Me To Break Custom - Saosin
4.Be My Escape - Relient K
5.Come Home Soon - Pug Jelly
6.All Downhill From Here - New Found Glory
7.Grey Skies Turn Blue -MXPX
8.Punk Rock 101 - Bowling For Soup
9.The Rock Show - Blink 182
10.American Idiot - Green Day
11.Moving On - Good Charlotte
12.Where Is Your Boy Tonight - Fall Out Boy
13.Stare At The Sun - Thrice
14.Only One - Yellowcard
15.Bouncing Off The Walls Again - Sugarcult
16.Adding To The Noise - Switchfoot
17.Fever For The Flava - Hot Action Cop
18.We're All To Blame - Sum41
19.Go Skate! - Suicidal Tendencies
20.Pitiful - Blindside
21.Paperhymn Thin - Amberlin
22.Anthem Of Our Dying Day - Story Of The Year
23.Volvo Driving Soccer Mum - Everclear

I wanted to put more songs in, since there was still space, but I thought what the foo, I'll just leave it for my next compilation! :)

Its getting late and I'm not sleepy. I'm going down the slippery slope. Or maybe I've already hit rock bottom.

Sunday, March 19

Term 2

The past week:

Three days of camp, which means 7x3 hours of guitar practise. Well actually no, only like a tenth of that was practise time, the rest was either spent lying down on the classroom tables or flipping my fingers on the piano. It WAS fun don't get me wrong, especially spending free time at the LAN shop. At least it owns ncc camp.

The remaining days were spent were on my A maths homework: I HAVE to start understanding calculas, before i start lagging like mad.

The holidays are over!

Get over it.
Its the last day of the holiday already.

Darn.

Wednesday, March 8

making the mark

The presence of competition drives one to strive. At least this is observed as a general trend. Without the presence of a threat, an opponent, a benchmark, would someone be motivated to put in his best and more?

I've come to realise that this sense of wanting to strive can be lost. Gradually, unknowingly, subconsciously, one may lose this form of motivation. I once had the drive to compete and win, but looking at myself now, theres probably an unnoticeable amount of it left, maybe even zilch.

Surprisingly, I no longer am able to make myself competitive, or conjure up that same motivation. I don't bother comparing grades, qualifications, let alone personal possesions and what not. The desire to beat someone, be the best, be the benchmark, is no longer present. Is that a good thing? Or bad?

I guess, looking at it in the biblical point of view, WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO, winning is not important. What is, is that we do our best. Easy to say, but when you commit to do your best in your studies, you really HAVE TO do your best. Taking free time out to read up textbooks and preperation papers, if thats what it takes.

Then comes the part where you ask for the definition of 'your best'. Being an ACS boy, I've been induced with the idea of the best being 'yet to be'. Which is actually almost completely true. A world record is no longer a world record when a new one is set, isn't it so. So can the best ever be achieved?

If yes, can i do it?

Tuesday, March 7

Sunlight

I've been reading some of my really old entries and an immediate thought dawned on me. I can really see the immaturity in those entries, the language, the grammar, the slangs, the thoughts. Oh my gosh, I can't perceive how I could possibly be like that in the past.

Its amazing how at a point of time, one can assure himself that he is doing the perfectly mature and correct thing. Weeks, months, years down the road, looking back, you not only realise that what you actually did was completely immature and dumb, but you also experience the exasperating feeling from the inability to undo it.

But, I guess, this is perfectly normal. Learning, growing, reflecting. I can't imagine myself a decade from now, looking a decade back and deeming myself immature. But, I'm very sure I will. Somehow.

The week of holiday is approaching. Although I know that it comes with a heavy load of homework, I'm still looking forward to the break. Term One report is coming out. Surprisingly, I aced physics and english literature! Bombshell number two: Psst. I didn't do well for A.maths :)

oh my FOO

Here it is: my NEW template and url (:

Sunday, March 5

ooh aah

to think i suffered all those scar-inflicting injuries on my knee, from rough tackles suffered in the court and on the field, i, never thought i would live to be pricked by a branch. to bleed by a branch. to limp from an injury caused by the poke of a stick, an inanimate object, a non-living stick thing :(

now i can't walk properly. i'm having this strange doubt lurking amongst the rest of my thoughts, what if the wound gets infected and i'll have to amputate my toe.

??!!

nah, that wouldn't happen in my lifetime. no it won't.

lessons i can gather from this life-threatening situation: never walk into the bushes barefooted. branches and stick things are dangerous.

nope not ever going to repeat the same dumb mistake, don't ever want my little toes amputated.

Friday, March 3

away from the

and now again i've found myself
so far down
away from the sun that shines into
the darkest place
i'm so far down
away from the sun that shines to light
the way for me
to find my way back into the arms
that care about
the ones like me
i'm so far down
away from the sun again


i'm trying to grasp the meaning of life, if it exists.

Wednesday, March 1

never will i break

and the week didn't go so bad. at least i cleared the overdue tests and homework.

and i found out that we were changing our chinese teacher. a third of the class is dropping higher chinese, which means we're splitting up during chinese and there's a change of teacher. and i thought huang was good. as they say: good things don't last. hopefully the new teacher's as good.

jhan returned my 3DD cd. finally, after a year or so. i was listening to it in my mum's car on the way home. the songs sounded so familiar. and so now i'm stuck to 3 doors down like a fool to his beliefs. silly me.

this road i walk
is paved with the broken
promises i made
at least a million times
i've fallen
but never will i break