Monday, August 25

your body is a wonderland



haha wonders of a dslr! thank you favourite for teaching me :D

olympics are finally over! no more distractions yea.

whoa i love this:

Friday, August 22

TOO WEAKS LEFT!

EXAMS will be the death of me.

now i know f-5s make a left-handed circuit pattern around paya lebar airbase. they make such a roaring pleasant blast of a sound whenever they take-off and go around my block for circuits. andand i can see the runway behind the high greens from the top floor of my block! do you know that paya lebar's runway is as long as the two runways at changi? :D and the one at seletar is no where close. one day, probably after exams, i'm going to take photos of the f-5s and C130s doing circuits/taking-off/landing - from the 14th floor.

STUDYING is the death of me.

things accomplished lately:
read huckfinn in detail
read siddhartha again
read paddy clarke finally
drilled chemistry into my brain
listen to 12 stones
sing along to lie to me

i want to take stimulants!! and depressants at the same time, to keep me from worrying.

amine groups accept hydrogen ions in aqueous solutions, due to the electronegative attraction of its lone pair, forming a positive ion. weekeng says it forms NHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, like that makes sense.

Tuesday, August 12

michael phelps for 8!

i'm amused by how a DSLR works, it's actually quite fun :D

which reminds me, if i do get the 5k my mum promised when i do well, i'd probably spend it on a mac and a camera. OR if i do extra well, which is highly unlikely (imagine 44, 45), i would keep the 5k and rely on scholarship funds to get my desires.

ok it's still abit early to think so far ahead. sometimes i dream too much, and stay at that, which is kind of problematic for a lazy person like me. heh.

yesterday, i was totally swept away by the american 4x100m freestyle relay team, oh my jason lezac totally stole the show away. he totally pawned the french world record holder for 100m free, that noob was complacent haha. i was half, actually no, more like totally supporting phelps in his bid for 8 gold medals. he seriously has to rely on trust for the relay events. there's still the 4x200m free and 4x100m medley. trust man.

saving abel and FM static is nice.


Stand clear she's the girl of the year
And there's no use in trying to get her off my mind
She stole my heart and she's tearin' it apart
It's never gonna be the same

Sunday, August 10

i don't give a shit about shit

i realise: doubt-induced change is a recurring thing. these come at unpredictable times, i never will know what is going to happen and thus can scarce prevent it. which makes me out as a fool, having my all being played like a tennis ball, from court to court and back.

strange, that it is mostly on my part; no extra body to induce value-conflicting thoughts in my mind. methinks when the human mind is all fair-weathered and settling down, there is no fighting an invading phenomena that stems from nowhere but the settled mind. that thing called doubt. i haven't thought of a way to block off wondering thoughts, that act as anchored roots for thriving doubt. i recall hearing from somewhere, can't remember where, just vaguely the phrase, that the mind is a person's only assured refuge and solace. yet, this solace can't protect itself from itself. because when the mechanism of wild thought starts, there's no stopping the impending danger. one moment i'm happy with the everything i have, the very next i question my happiness and count my possessions.

leave me be to my thoughts: on a couch, by the bed, in a train, and soon they'll start popping. those devious things that destroy. i hate them creatures. they make me change, and to feel different about the things i used to feel positive for. no sedative or drink is going to stop the continuous invasion, unless i sedate or drink myself to eternal sleep. that will do it, for sure. but that ain't right i know.

to that shit, i can think of no other solution than to be continually busy, such that merciless wild thought can never have a go. oh yes that sounds almost perfect.

not to mention, there's always a chance to recover from the damage of doubt. i think i'll call that renewal.

Saturday, August 9

the earth, sky and doubt

amorous love, the sky showed affection
to so darling a thing as earth.
that the smitten clouds looked to trees yonder
pouring rain, rushed hymns of marriage.

quick followed, induction of grand unite
between swift groom and rash bride.
brief the courting, in likeness copulate,
euphoria's season come and go.

so abrupt the brier stems, doubt nestles,
anchored fast into sky's thoughts thorn.
showers halt their descent, fertile transformed
barren land that shrubs thirst of sad.

deluge never arrived on starving soil
as creeper's outstretched arms to grasp,
dry windless non-existent air nutrients
from the late love of darling sky.

Monday, August 4

UNDER MY UMBRELLA ELLA ELLA EH EH EH



WHEN THE SUN SHINES, WE'LL SHINE TOGETHER
TOLD YOU I'LL BE HERE FOREVER
SAID I'LL ALWAYS BE A FRIEND
TOOK AN OATH I'MA STICK IT OUT TILL THE END
NOW THAT IT'S RAINING MORE THAN EVER
KNOW THAT WE'LL STILL HAVE EACH OTHER

YOU CAN STAND UNDER MY UMBRELLA
YOU CAN STAND UNDER MY UMBRELLA
ELLA
ELLA
EH
EH
EH

under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh
under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh

Saturday, August 2

i made a playlist yesterday in my x-fi. i named it 'slumber songs' and played the list to sleep :D

01. landing in london - 3 doors down
02. remembering sunday - all time low
03. in loving memory - alter bridge
04. boston - augustana
05. california - copeland
06. coffee - copeland
07. love affair - copeland
08. answering our prayers - dropping daylight
09. adieu - enter shikari
10. 1973 - james blunt
11. hear you me - jimmy eat world
12. closer - travis
13. amazing because it is - the almost
14. let it all out - relient k
15. be my escape (acoustic) - relient k
16. tell mary - meg & dia
17. tisbury lane - mae
18. everything - lifehouse
19. you & me - lifehouse
20. love hurts - incubus
21. dig - incubus
22. vacant - dream theater
23. one last breath - creed
24. the scientist - coldplay
25. fix you - coldplay
26. empty apartment - yellowcard
27. some will seek forgiveness, others escape - underoath
28. twenty-four - switchfoot
29. slipping away - sum 41
30. memory (acoustic) - sugarcult
31. lighthouse - the hush sound
32. body in a box - city and colour
33. my immortal - evanescence
34. nashville skyline - dishwalla
35. i'll keep your memory vague - finger eleven
36. consuming fire - hillsong united
37. numbness for sound - howie day
38. echo - trapt
39. this is our town - we the kings

leave it on shuffle and go to sleep!