Thursday, July 31

back off, i'll take you on, headstrong to take on anyone



things left in the way of 100% studying:
1) CAS file
2) IOC

a few months ago the list looked garganuanormously towering.

i think i changed my mind, literally.

Wednesday, July 23

i've got birds in my ears and a devil on my shoulder

favourite song:


2nd favourite song:


CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR :D

i'm glad my parents understand that i really want to do well for my exams in november.

Sunday, July 20

hey miss sobriety
do you remember me
or how to say my name?
do you remember when
we were friends
all the way back then?


I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE FROM THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES OF DEATH. ok it's not that bad, but when i actually try to do it, i just crumble and resign myself to try it again tomorrow. and tomorrow brings exactly the same problem, this way tomorrow never ever comes. i know this feeling of procrastination too well.

i probably won't be coming online as often nowadays. i feel guilty using the comp :/ at least i have my x-fi to keep me company, together with 'effective guide for a level physics' and world literature. i have to get used to this lifestyle of non-stop quest and absorption of knowledge. it is quite satisfying actually, in a completely different way from being totally lazy and playing comp all day. there are things i have to sacrifice though, and some things won't be dropped so easily.


one mans trash
is another mans treasure
(don’t you wonder why I even loved her?)
one mans pain
is another mans pleasure
(i need to find a way to do this over)

Monday, July 14

is anybody there answering our prayers, or did we do this to ourselves?

ok i'm kind of sad now, but not sad to the extent of dire distress. i'm just worried. on the account that some people have access to the internet, i shall not say anything.

time to concentrate on what matters most now: studies! to say the least, the reality of my predicament finally hit me in the face. but it is all falling into perspective now. this opportunity for me to thrive, i shall finally grab it. it may be my only real chance left, everything of the future depends on this. really.

no more:
1) dota
2) comp games
3) excessive psp
4) excessive soccer
5) lazing around doing nothing
6) procrastination

that said, i love my new x-fi. redcliff tomorrow!

Sunday, July 13

and I can't get you to sing along, so sit down and shut up or leave me

the random play function re-ignited my love for dropping daylight. i favourited the whole brace yourself album.

their songs are not the usual lovey dovey, or the i hate everything gaa songs. it's the so-appeals-to-me-now type of songs, which brings in the more real and present human emotions rather than romantic notions that are so idealistic. which makes me wonder why they haven't become famous and release a new album. their songs are <3

i miss seeing you favourite :D oh and you've got to listen to dropping daylight, if you haven't already done so.

Friday, July 11

to the heights, to the heights, there is hope.. waiting

i succumbed to the creative zen x-fi!

ah ok so i don't have enough space to put all my songs inside. and there's no scroll like the ipod, but it's twice lighter, twice smaller, has wifi, comes with ownage earphones and is aesthetically much more pleasing!

:D:D:D

oh and i got a pair of complimentary tickets to redcliff at gv. gay.

Wednesday, July 9

and we sang, 'here we go again'



i'd fly a jet and kiss my girl.

every part of my body from waist down is aching.

FAVOURITE SUPERRECALLER :D

heh i spent the last hour watching flying videos on youtube. commercial airliners landing in crazy crosswind conditions, fighters engaging in simulated combat, aerobatics, low passes and sonic booms. way cool stuff :D

Tuesday, July 8

i try to see but I'M BLINDED BY THE WHITE LIGHT

productivity mania to the max! (:

ok i feel super on. shiok i've got drive now, i really hope this lasts long. i planned out my escape plan already, escape school plan. its going to be really grand and not some sloppy shit. heh alliteration leh. oh my a rhyme. haha.

touching up my tok essay now. tomorrow i'll finish my world lit essay. after that i'll chiong my cas finish, prepare for ioc and study at the same time.

splendid brilliant awesomeness!

oh and i'm deciding between



this, and



this. i'm figuring out which one is more awesome. if both don't work out i don't mind flying an



apache (:

SORRY FAVOURITE/fav/fa/f FOR DAOING YOU :) ok la at least i got to do my tok.

Monday, July 7

this is not the greatest song in the world, no this is just a tribute

EXAMS SUCK.

that said, i couldn't find a northrop f5 tiger model at toys r us! there was the f16 fighting falcon and the a-4 skyhawk, but there wasn't a single f5. NOO now i don't know what to give my flying instructor as a thank you gift, plus simultaneously getting him to sign my cas documents heh.

i'm thinking alot about what i'm going to do in the future now, as in career and tertiary education wise. you know getting a government scholarship and being a high flier sounds so attractive if i can actually pull it off.

the SAF Overseas Scholarship states that after ns i am fully subsidized for all course/enrolment fees + airfare + tuition fees + accommodation + allowance while i study in an overseas university, at the same time i would be drawing pay as an saf officer cadet trainee of around 2k a month during the entire duration of my studies. that sounds mega cool. seriously. and the minimum criteria is to get 40 for my ib exams, that sounds really do-able.

you know what i have to do, first stop thinking that anything prestigious and above me equates something impossible and thus not worthwhile to give a shot. well, that gets me all the time. i don't think i'll get it anyway so i might as well give up now. that happens all the time, and you know what everytime i look back i regret. well, at least this time i got my private pilot's license and a first in a very long time i felt a great sense of satisfaction.

i know i can study and do well, its just the mental strength i lack that actually pulls me away from doing what i need to do the most. and distractions keep popping out just when you thought you got over the last one, it always does :/ i need someone to keep me in check, someone i can see and touch, on top of the living God, that would really help me greatly.

anyway, i've thought about it and being a fighter pilot would be very satisfying. its a darn cool occupation please. haha, paid to do something i enjoy, i like that. of course i wouldn't mind being a rockstar, but i'll be a pilot first. now i just need to get the grades to get the scholarship and then pray to God i pass the pilot medical. the career guy i approached totally convinced me that i want to be a pilot haha, and he totally convinced me to buff up. while some people may disagree on me taking protein and calories to gain weight, i'm totally going to do it (with supervision and care).

so glad exams are over, yet i dread school starting all over again. gagaga. i <3 tenacious d and the greatest song in the world's tribute!

things to do: buff up, study, clear homework.